How did we get here?

Mojo is a funny thing. Sometimes I have so much of it overspills out of my pores. Sometimes I have none at all and all I want to do is lay in my room in the dark and not do anything. That’s how I’ve been feeling lately, mainly due to external forces but partly my own doing, as well. 

But here I am, writing a post after what seems like a lifetime. How is everyone? What have I missed? I’ll be attempting to catch up with the blogosphere once this is posted. It’s not that I haven’t missed the blogosphere, it’s just that I got to a point where I couldn’t bear to do anything. All I wanted to do was watch TV (mostly Steven Universe) and eat a lot of crap.

My writing has suffered so badly because of this. I haven’t written properly in months; not even a smidgen. Camp NaNoWriMo is next month, so I will be attempting that in order to get my creative juices flowing.

It’s been hard, people. I cannot lie. Even writing this now requires a lot of effort from me but the thing is I do want to do it – I just have no energy. I have been drained. It’s so weird. I’m slowly getting back to my old self, though. It had gotten to a point where people at work were starting to notice that I wasn’t myself but slowly but surely. I’ll be fine. Self-care is so important.

So, where do we go from here?

Blog Revamp ✨

As I’m sure you’ve noticed I have a new blog layout! It’s nothing fancy and if you’ve followed me for a long time, then I’m sure you know I love a minimal design. But seeing as I’m trying to creep back into the blogosphere, I thought I might as well come back with a new look. 

Writing 🖊️

As I mentioned, I’ll be attempting Camp NaNoWriMo next month. I really want to make some headway on my book. I have 50k+ words down already, for God’s sake. I hate myself for being such a procrastinator and I know the book will not be written by itself. I’m doing some brainstorming and coming up with some new ideas. I’m refusing to go back and touch what’s already been written because I know I’ll get sucked into a black hole and never come out to actually continue the story.

I’ll also be making a conscious effort to post more on the blog and my portfolio. There was once a time that I could churn out 3 blog posts in a day and nowadays it takes me a whole day just to think of half a post. That needs to change. Writing has always been my first love, and need to keep nurturing that if I want to get anywhere in life.

Reading 📚

I’m the sort of person who reads about 50 gagillion books at the same time. At the moment I’m reading:

  • This Is How You Lose Her by Junot Díaz
  • Why I’m No Longer Talking to White People About Race by Reni Eddo-Lodge
  • The Waste Lands by Stephen King
  • How to Be a Bawse: A Guide to Conquering Life by Lilly Singh
  • Altered Carbon by Richard Morgan

I also still have a summer reading list from like 2015 that I have yet to complete. To be a bookworm. If you have any other suggestions for new reads, though, my inbox is always open. 😬

Fitness Journey ⛹🏽

I attempt one every year and it always fizzles out, but I’m trying really hard this year guys. I’ve been to the gym more frequently with Mutay and it’s been amazing. I’ve found I don’t have to post every time I go to the gym just to hold myself accountable. Not everyday social media. Do the #gainz for yourself, right? Been busting that 4.4L of water every day – my skin is a lot clearer than it used to be, although not the best. I think it’s because I love alcohol too much, but irrelevant.

Self Care 💆

I’ve realised that self-care doesn’t mean locking yourself in your room and wallowing in self-pity. Actually, I knew that already and I’ve written before about what to do to cultivate positivity. I must confess that I sometimes don’t listen to my own advice. Have you ever found that it’s so much easier to give other people advice, but when it comes to listening to yourself it is so much harder? Television is so cathartic for me. It is my greatest escape tool and I will always default to it when nothing else works. I’ve been listening to podcasts and music. Simple pamper sessions: sheet mask, painting my nails, bubble bath, Netflix – they do wonders for me. Little, little things to try and get me back on track.

Clear Out 🗑️

The thing I’ve been attempting to do since last year is clear out my wardrobe. There are so many clothes that I own that I know I will never, ever wear again but for some reason, I’m still hanging onto them. I keep telling myself that on my days off, I’ll start my clear out but I never do. I have no idea how I’m going to get around to it, I just know that I need to. Especially as I basically just wear the same clothes everyday, anyway. It’ll be so refreshing, as well.

That’s where I’m going from now on. You know that song by Miley Cyrus? The Climb.

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Hot damn. Deuces, for now. ✌️

 

I think this is what one would call a blog post… yes?

This post was intended for October, but better late than never, am I right? I reopened this post this morning and looked at what I had already written and realised it was no longer relevant because why? I FINISHED NANOWRIMO!

NaNoWriMo actually helped kickstart my creative juices again and ugh, it was so good to actually be writing every day again. Such a sweet feeling to reach 50k, as well! At this point, I have no idea where my plot is going. I have a plot outline and a vague notion of what I want to happen, but so far I’m just taking it as it comes and letting my MC do her own thang.

Independent woman and all that.

Moving on – I wanted to give you a quick rundown of my cosplay for Comic Con because guess what? I’m still on a high. My costume was actually a rush job because even though I knew I was going Con months in advance, ya girl likes to procrastinate so it wasn’t until Oct. 10 that I found myself in Hobbycraft panicking over whether to get three sheets of craft foam or two – just over two weeks before Con. Turned out that I would need more than three because I ended up going back a further two times. 🙊

Tools of the trade

I went as Gamora from Guardians of the Galaxy who I have wanted to cosplay for the longest time especially more so once I got my new wig which is similar to her hair in the film. I promise you I didn’t get the wig just so I could cosplay Gamora.

Gamora has all these accessories and an elaborate outfit which I didn’t replicate to a T but I did the best I could. Thanks to many hours of Internet crawling I managed to find some decent tutorials and templates to start making my costume.

I started off with her neckpiece which I made out of black craft foam and shaped with a hairdryer. It would have been much better with a heat gun, but I didn’t want to spend money on something which I wouldn’t use that often. Thankfully my mum has a mannequin body which helped a lot with the shaping. I used ModPodge and black acrylic paint to make it shiny and then used white craft foam hexagons which I spray painted chrome silver for the decoration. I also cut the neck piece in the middle and fastened Velcro, so it would be easy to take on and off.

The next port of call was her belt pieces. I found this template which called for a 3D printer, which I do not have, unfortunately. I decided to wing it and use craft foam again and it turned out amazing! Hot glue guns are such a saviour, honestly. I had a black belt which I ordered from ASOS, but it was actually the wrong size for me so I just chucked it to the side because I couldn’t be bothered to return it. Luckily, I got to use it for my costume and the belt pieces slid on perfectly.

I also made my own leather gloves using my sister’s old leather jacket. I found a tutorial via DeviantArt, which I didn’t follow completely because I didn’t have all the materials (again, didn’t want to spend tooooo much money) but it still turned out well!

I also agonised over making the sword or buying one. I ended up making it because the specific sword Gamora has is not available anywhere. Using mount board, I traced the outline of the sword before cutting it out and using papier-mâché to strengthen it. I spray painted it with chrome silver again. It wasn’t as strong as I wanted it to be and it actually ended up breaking when I was at Con because people kept bumping into it ☹️, nevertheless I still managed to get a few photos with it. I ordered a holster online which had brown bits on it, so I spray painted that black to blend with the rest of the outfit.

Last bits were the boots, but I just ended up wearing my normal black heeled boots which still went well with the outfit. My mesh top and leggings are from Amazon, and I actually wear the leggings all the time now – mainly because they make my arse look great, but that’s irrelevant. I was going to do the pattern that Gamora has on her leggings using fabric paint but figured I could reuse the clothes again, so decided against it.

I had a hard time finding green lipstick until I went to a Superdrug with a friend and she found it for me! The green face paint is from Snazaroo, which lasted basically the whole day. My two friends help me turn green for the day. Eyeshadow, silver eyeliner for the markings on her face and false eyelashes completed the look and bam!

I go by many names, my Tick-Ridden Troll, but I’m sure the one that Black Knight knew me by is Gamora, the Deadliest Woman in the whole Galaxy!

Comic Con itself was so much fun! A little girl came up to me and asked to take a photo with me, and you best believe my heart melted. I was like, “Me?!”. I’m usually the one who goes up to people asking for photos, but ah omg.

I didn’t buy much this Con, unlike last time, but I got my hands on some cookies and cream Pocky and a Pikachu fizzy drink. The main highlight was the Geek Gear box I received. I waited until the next day to open it and it was filled with SO MANY GOODIES. I got so excited over the Marvel alarm clock and the rest of the box was filled with Harry Potter merch, which made me so so happy. View the videos here and here what was in the box. (TL;DR – can’t be arse to take photos)

I cannot wait until Comic Con next year and I really want to go to both in May and October. I’m thinking maybe Nebula, just because I can rock her bald look and also blue paint. I just really like a face paint, not gonna lie. I’ve already started researching her costume and accessories 😏.

 

I will also be trying to get back to my regular posting and the regular habit of actually returning comments! I’m going to be doing Weekmas as suggested by Mutay because I really don’t have time to do Blogmas or 12 Days of Christmas, so this is more manageable. I’ve already got my list of posts sorted, so stay tuned!

Until next time (whenever that will be).