How did we get here?

Mojo is a funny thing. Sometimes I have so much of it overspills out of my pores. Sometimes I have none at all and all I want to do is lay in my room in the dark and not do anything. That’s how I’ve been feeling lately, mainly due to external forces but partly my own doing, as well. 

But here I am, writing a post after what seems like a lifetime. How is everyone? What have I missed? I’ll be attempting to catch up with the blogosphere once this is posted. It’s not that I haven’t missed the blogosphere, it’s just that I got to a point where I couldn’t bear to do anything. All I wanted to do was watch TV (mostly Steven Universe) and eat a lot of crap.

My writing has suffered so badly because of this. I haven’t written properly in months; not even a smidgen. Camp NaNoWriMo is next month, so I will be attempting that in order to get my creative juices flowing.

It’s been hard, people. I cannot lie. Even writing this now requires a lot of effort from me but the thing is I do want to do it – I just have no energy. I have been drained. It’s so weird. I’m slowly getting back to my old self, though. It had gotten to a point where people at work were starting to notice that I wasn’t myself but slowly but surely. I’ll be fine. Self-care is so important.

So, where do we go from here?

Blog Revamp ✨

As I’m sure you’ve noticed I have a new blog layout! It’s nothing fancy and if you’ve followed me for a long time, then I’m sure you know I love a minimal design. But seeing as I’m trying to creep back into the blogosphere, I thought I might as well come back with a new look. 

Writing 🖊️

As I mentioned, I’ll be attempting Camp NaNoWriMo next month. I really want to make some headway on my book. I have 50k+ words down already, for God’s sake. I hate myself for being such a procrastinator and I know the book will not be written by itself. I’m doing some brainstorming and coming up with some new ideas. I’m refusing to go back and touch what’s already been written because I know I’ll get sucked into a black hole and never come out to actually continue the story.

I’ll also be making a conscious effort to post more on the blog and my portfolio. There was once a time that I could churn out 3 blog posts in a day and nowadays it takes me a whole day just to think of half a post. That needs to change. Writing has always been my first love, and need to keep nurturing that if I want to get anywhere in life.

Reading 📚

I’m the sort of person who reads about 50 gagillion books at the same time. At the moment I’m reading:

  • This Is How You Lose Her by Junot Díaz
  • Why I’m No Longer Talking to White People About Race by Reni Eddo-Lodge
  • The Waste Lands by Stephen King
  • How to Be a Bawse: A Guide to Conquering Life by Lilly Singh
  • Altered Carbon by Richard Morgan

I also still have a summer reading list from like 2015 that I have yet to complete. To be a bookworm. If you have any other suggestions for new reads, though, my inbox is always open. 😬

Fitness Journey ⛹🏽

I attempt one every year and it always fizzles out, but I’m trying really hard this year guys. I’ve been to the gym more frequently with Mutay and it’s been amazing. I’ve found I don’t have to post every time I go to the gym just to hold myself accountable. Not everyday social media. Do the #gainz for yourself, right? Been busting that 4.4L of water every day – my skin is a lot clearer than it used to be, although not the best. I think it’s because I love alcohol too much, but irrelevant.

Self Care 💆

I’ve realised that self-care doesn’t mean locking yourself in your room and wallowing in self-pity. Actually, I knew that already and I’ve written before about what to do to cultivate positivity. I must confess that I sometimes don’t listen to my own advice. Have you ever found that it’s so much easier to give other people advice, but when it comes to listening to yourself it is so much harder? Television is so cathartic for me. It is my greatest escape tool and I will always default to it when nothing else works. I’ve been listening to podcasts and music. Simple pamper sessions: sheet mask, painting my nails, bubble bath, Netflix – they do wonders for me. Little, little things to try and get me back on track.

Clear Out 🗑️

The thing I’ve been attempting to do since last year is clear out my wardrobe. There are so many clothes that I own that I know I will never, ever wear again but for some reason, I’m still hanging onto them. I keep telling myself that on my days off, I’ll start my clear out but I never do. I have no idea how I’m going to get around to it, I just know that I need to. Especially as I basically just wear the same clothes everyday, anyway. It’ll be so refreshing, as well.

That’s where I’m going from now on. You know that song by Miley Cyrus? The Climb.

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Hot damn. Deuces, for now. ✌️


As my cousin would say: #iworkouttoeat

Last weekend I had the opportunity to try out 1Rebel‘s ‘Reshape’ class and lets just say something definitely got reshaped during those 45 minutes.

Located near Liverpool Street, 1Rebel is a boutique fitness studio and easily one of the fanciest gyms I’ve been too. They specialise in three classes at this location: ROUNDS, RUMBLE and RESHAPE, and all I can say is “Wow.” Teaming up with Simplyhealth and Joe Blogs, I arrived at 1Rebel around 10.30AM feeling fully prepared. I had my gym clothes on already, my water bottle was filled (which I didn’t even need because there was plenty of water going around!) and I was filled with excitement.

How quickly that turned.

Reshape is HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training) and not for the faint of heart: 45 mins of intervals between a treadmill and weights, and you will finish so fatigued that you’ll sit down in a daze wondering how the hell you made it through. The great thing? Bryony, our trainer for the session, was so energetic and so focussed on us reaching our best, you can’t help but push through. Although I had to pull myself back a bit through the session, I never stopped. Coupled with the amazing music, it was one of the best/worst workouts I’ve had.

The vibe at 1Rebel is amazing, and as soon as you enter it feels like you’re walking into a nightclub. The changing rooms were out of this world – rain showers (with body wash, shampoo and conditioner to use!), make-up counter and hairstyling centre (GHD dryers and hair straighteners!). You’ll have to bring your own personal essentials, but everything else is there to make yourself look fresh again. There are fresh towels, lockers and massive mirrors so that you can check out that six-pack you accumulated. I walked out feeling like a lady again after that intense workout. I looked like I hadn’t even worked out! Flawless, baby.

After the workout, we were treated to Simplyhealth‘s super yummy recovery smoothies. I opted for the Super Sassy Smoothie: Coconut water, spirulina, apple, lemon, avocado, honey, ginger, spinach & chia seeds. Did you know? The chia seed is nutrient dense and packs a punch of energy boosting power. It was really tasty! We were also given a LifeBox packed full of super health foods, clean eats and refreshments.

“Our mission is to create the most incredible box of natural health food, beverages, supernutrients, spice mixes, snacks, information and guidance to provide you with the ultimate in nourishment, sustenance and health whilst also inspiring you to be creative with the box ingredients and get you on you own journey to a healthier lifestyle. For Life.” – LifeBox mission

I have been making more green juices/smoothies as of late, so I’m really excited to try out the different superfood blends. As soon as I opened the box the smell of the Yogi Tea was so wonderful.

I am no fitness pro, but if you want a full body work out that you feel for the next few days afterwards I would definitely recommend 1Rebel. Tips before entering a session: mentally prepare yourself. As I mentioned previously, this is not for the faint hearted. However, if you are truly about changing your body for the better then it’s all worth it in the end. 

Thank you to 1Rebel, Simplyhealth and Joe Blogs for a fantastic experience!

I also had lots of fun hanging out with Genevieve of FitBeauLife 🙂 Here are a few photos from the event:

Group Shot





This post would have been up yesterday if it weren’t for my spectacular laziness.

Hello, beauties! How is everyone?

It’s been a while since my last post. Hope you haven’t missed me too much. I can’t lie – I have missed blogging a little bit, but with work and other social endeavours I am always so tired when I get home that the only thing I can do is read or watch a film. Just about. I haven’t caught up on all of my TV shows in a week – *shock horror* – and I am now reading 4 books at the same time. As you do.

This week was a long one for me. The past weekend was the first one I had off in the past 2 weeks, because my fast self decided to do overtime. To be fair, I definitely need to considering the amount of holidays I now have booked.

Discovered this extremely cool bar in Clapham Junction called Rise46 thanks to my friend who held her birthday there. It has a 1920s theme and they do live music until 10pm on Friday and then there’s a DJ afterward. I was not prepared when ‘Work’ came on. At all.

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I sometimes wonder what life would be like if young people weren’t pressured into choosing what they want to do with their life, so early on. From the time they do their GCSEs, it’s kind of expected that they’re choosing subjects that will set them up at a good university and onto a good career path.

Question in point: Why do people need to desperately know what you want to do in life?

I wonder what would have happened had I not gone to university and instead just got a part time job and travelled the world. Would I be worldlier? Or would I just be stuck up and constantly going on about how spiritual my travels were?

Who knows, eh?

Lets not live in the ‘What if?’ but live in the NOW. As mentioned in my previous post, I’ve set some goals for 2015. I am pleased to say they are going well. VERY well, in fact.

#1 Go to the gym more – check

3 times a week, baby! I’m already starting to feel a difference, and I’m only just going into week 3. It also helps that Mutay is my gym buddy.

#2 Eat clean – check

2 weeks ago, I did a food shop and bought loads of healthy stuff. I’ve swapped out white rice for brown rice, quinoa and couscous. I’m eating more greens and I’ve discovered how much I actually love avocado and eggs. Oh, and Ukrainian food. Big up.

This has become my new favourite website:

Peep these delicious recipes I’ve cooked for dinner these past two weeks (some improvised, some from Paleo Grubs and some from Kayla Itsine’s nutrition guide.)

I also ordered a steak salad for the first time when going out to eat, which was under 500 calories. Clap for me, pretties. I usually go for a burger. With lotsa cheese.

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#3 Travelling – watch this space

There is nothing to report here, not without spoiling things. Excitement is on the horizon, though.

#4 Get organised – check

Actually remembering dates by writing them in my planner. It’s amazing. I’m being really good with saving my money and being more productive, as well.

I’m so damn proud of me.

Dear 2014,

I’m probably a bit late with this letter, as we are now obviously in 2015, but I thought I’d just write you one anyway.

We started off the year on a high, and successfully completed Blog Everyday In February. All was going great – fecking peachy, in fact. We finally wrote that post we wanted to for AGES about religion and felt a big weight come off our chest.

The importance of not giving a fuck was rife in 2014, and it served us well. Of course, you and I sometimes didn’t see eye to eye. It was to be expected. Despite a few hiccups toward the end of the year, we were given so many new opportunities – thanks to this blog.

The best thing was that we ended 2014 on a high. Here’s to us! At least we made it to 2015.

I prefer calling them goals rather than New Year’s resolutions, but here are few things I’m aiming to do this year:

#1 Go to the gym more

Last year I was actually a pretty avid gym go-er, but this was before I went on holiday to Barcelona, so you can see why. I went a couple of times toward the end of the year, but I actually want to get back to the gym and start looking after my body more.

#2 Eat clean

I’ve had this bikini body guide for a while now, but I have yet to start it. It has a pretty good sample menu for a weeks eating, and it actually looks delicious. As a person who loves their food, I’m a bit nervous about changing my diet. Of course it’s all about moderation, so I’m sure I got this.

I really want to start making smoothies and green juices again. I kind of miss them.

#3 Travelling

I mentioned in my previous post that I have some big travelling plans this year. The ball should get rolling next week, hopefully. Pretty exciting stuff.

#4 Get organised

I’d like to think I’m a pretty organised person, but as of late I’m a bit all over the place. I need to just sit down and starting planning for everything. I mean EVERYTHING.

What are some of your goals for 2015?