I haven’t been completely honest.
The dating game is a hard game to play.
Some of my readers will know that I was in relationship, which has now since ended. Relationships are a funny thing. You never know if you’ve jumped in too quickly, until after it has ended. In the beginning there is always a honeymoon period and you think the sun shines out of their arse. Everything is all rosy and peachy and it feels like nothing can go wrong.
Then it does.
Relationships have always been tricky for me. I’ve never been one to hold a relationship for more than a year. I don’t know what it is or who jinxed me. I know that shouldn’t be in a hurry because I am only 23, but I feel like I am running out of time. Imagine an hourglass and you can see the sand grains passing through, but it’s going too fast and you can’t stop the grains because there’s a barrier. That’s how I feel about finding someone to spend the rest of my life with.
Let’s be honest, guys. No one wants to be alone.
I was dating someone at the start of the New Year. It was wonderful and new because he was someone I wouldn’t usually go for. He was intelligent and funny and someone I could actually hold an intellectual conversation with. He was into history, something that doesn’t really interest me… but I found myself becoming fascinated in that topic because of him. He opened my eyes to new things and a different perspective on life.
It was refreshing.
That has now since ended and although I was really upset about it, I know can always look back on it with fondness. It was really good period in my life and I can honestly say I was happy, especially after being so heartbroken over my previous relationship.
Have you ever had someone break your heart after they have dumped you? They’ve used all the personal things you’ve opened up to them about and just used it to attack you and the only thing you can do is pretend that you’re absolutely fine with it. You’re not fine, though. It takes you by complete and utter surprise, but then not really because there were signs that they were always that kind of person. You were too in love to even notice it.
Don’t you hate it when you introduce someone to your friends and then it f*cks up? I’m the sort of person, who if I introduce you to my friends then I know that I want this to be serious. My friends are my family and without them I wouldn’t be who I am today. When I introduce you to my friends, I’m saying, “Okay, this is it. No turning back.” It sounds like a lot of pressure, but I don’t introduce a lot of guys to my friends in all honesty.
It’s even worst when it’s your mum and dad. Don’t even get me started on that.
I believe that everyone has soul mates. As in more than one person can be your soul mate. Someone who will come at a certain point in your life to teach you valuable lessons, and then he or she leaves just like the seasons. Eventually you will find the person that you are meant to be with, but in the meantime everything is a learning curve.
You’ll go on many dates thinking this may go somewhere, only to end up disappointed.
This isn’t a “feel-sorry-for-Chynna-kind-of-post”. This is more of a post to just get out what has been swirling around my useless brain. I want to get back into connecting with you guys on a personal level. I feel like my blog has become a bit too brand focused for my liking – I love writing about brands, but my blog has and always will be the place where I can write my inner most thoughts. I feel like I have lost touch with the roots of my blog.
Lets turn it around.