Mojo Shmojo

How did we get here?

Mojo is a funny thing. Sometimes I have so much of it overspills out of my pores. Sometimes I have none at all and all I want to do is lay in my room in the dark and not do anything. That’s how I’ve been feeling lately, mainly due to external forces but partly my own doing, as well. 

But here I am, writing a post after what seems like a lifetime. How is everyone? What have I missed? I’ll be attempting to catch up with the blogosphere once this is posted. It’s not that I haven’t missed the blogosphere, it’s just that I got to a point where I couldn’t bear to do anything. All I wanted to do was watch TV (mostly Steven Universe) and eat a lot of crap.

My writing has suffered so badly because of this. I haven’t written properly in months; not even a smidgen. Camp NaNoWriMo is next month, so I will be attempting that in order to get my creative juices flowing.

It’s been hard, people. I cannot lie. Even writing this now requires a lot of effort from me but the thing is I do want to do it – I just have no energy. I have been drained. It’s so weird. I’m slowly getting back to my old self, though. It had gotten to a point where people at work were starting to notice that I wasn’t myself but slowly but surely. I’ll be fine. Self-care is so important.

So, where do we go from here?

Blog Revamp βœ¨

As I’m sure you’ve noticed I have a new blog layout! It’s nothing fancy and if you’ve followed me for a long time, then I’m sure you know I love a minimal design. But seeing as I’m trying to creep back into the blogosphere, I thought I might as well come back with a new look. 

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Writing πŸ–ŠοΈ

As I mentioned, I’ll be attempting Camp NaNoWriMo next month. I really want to make some headway on my book. I have 50k+ words down already, for God’s sake. I hate myself for being such a procrastinator and I know the book will not be written by itself. I’m doing some brainstorming and coming up with some new ideas. I’m refusing to go back and touch what’s already been written because I know I’ll get sucked into a black hole and never come out to actually continue the story.

I’ll also be making a conscious effort to post more on the blog and my portfolio. There was once a time that I could churn out 3 blog posts in a day and nowadays it takes me a whole day just to think of half a post. That needs to change. Writing has always been my first love, and need to keep nurturing that if I want to get anywhere in life.

Reading πŸ“š

I’m the sort of person who reads about 50 gagillion books at the same time. At the moment I’m reading:

  • This Is How You Lose Her by Junot DΓ­az
  • Why I’m No Longer Talking to White People About Race by Reni Eddo-Lodge
  • The Waste Lands by Stephen King
  • How to Be a Bawse: A Guide to Conquering Life by Lilly Singh
  • Altered Carbon by Richard Morgan

I also still have a summer reading list from like 2015 that I have yet to complete. To be a bookworm. If you have any other suggestions for new reads, though, my inbox is always open. πŸ˜¬

Fitness Journey β›ΉπŸ½

I attempt one every year and it always fizzles out, but I’m trying really hard this year guys. I’ve been to the gym more frequently with Mutay and it’s been amazing. I’ve found I don’t have to post every time I go to the gym just to hold myself accountable. Not everyday social media. Do the #gainz for yourself, right? Been busting that 4.4L of water every day – my skin is a lot clearer than it used to be, although not the best. I think it’s because I love alcohol too much, but irrelevant.

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Self Care πŸ’†

I’ve realised that self-care doesn’t mean locking yourself in your room and wallowing in self-pity. Actually, I knew that already and I’ve written before about what to do to cultivate positivity. I must confess that I sometimes don’t listen to my own advice. Have you ever found that it’s so much easier to give other people advice, but when it comes to listening to yourself it is so much harder? Television is so cathartic for me. It is my greatest escape tool and I will always default to it when nothing else works. I’ve been listening to podcasts and music. Simple pamper sessions: sheet mask, painting my nails, bubble bath, Netflix – they do wonders for me. Little, little things to try and get me back on track.

Clear Out πŸ—‘️

The thing I’ve been attempting to do since last year is clear out my wardrobe. There are so many clothes that I own that I know I will never, ever wear again but for some reason, I’m still hanging onto them. I keep telling myself that on my days off, I’ll start my clear out but I never do. I have no idea how I’m going to get around to it, I just know that I need to. Especially as I basically just wear the same clothes everyday, anyway. It’ll be so refreshing, as well.

That’s where I’m going from now on. You know that song by Miley Cyrus? The Climb.

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Hot damn. Deuces, for now. ✌️

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15 Comments

  1. June 22, 2018 / 1:47 pm

    Woo hoo, welcome back! πŸ™‚ It’s so hard to break out of funks… I go in and out of one so often, and one month I get so much done and I feel like a super woman, and next month I barely get by with work before I crash every day at 7pm. Self care is sooo important too. I think it’s best not to beat yourself up during the downs because it’s probably your body and brain telling you to rest because it’s tired. Or you have vitamin deficiency like vitamin D or magnesium. Those two have helped me a lot, I think.

    Good luck getting ’em gainz, and hope you have tons of fun at the camp!!! That sounds so cool! I’ve always wanted to attend a writing retreat… Alas, work!

    Hiro // http://twistedpaths.org

    • Chynna
      Author
      June 24, 2018 / 6:47 pm

      Thank you, Hiro! Feels good to be back πŸ™‚ I’ve started taking multivitamins every day and I can definitely feel a slight difference. Still need to take more care of my body though!

      The camp is online – I wish I could go to an actual writing retreat but same, work and time πŸ™

  2. June 22, 2018 / 3:49 pm

    *Hugs* I hope you’re feeling better now! I feel you. I haven’t been blogging either, mostly I felt funky (and not in the stinky way lol). I also agree that it’s easier giving advice, rather than following it. Self-care is really important! And sometimes it feels good not to really do anything. I also think it’s okay to take a break! Sometimes I feel like your creative juices flow better when you’re feeling better about yourself, if that makes sense.

    I’ve heard a lot of great things about Junot Diaz! I haven’t read any of his works yet though. Do you like the book so far?

  3. June 22, 2018 / 10:48 pm

    Your new layout looks awesome!
    I recommend selling your clothes on depop to get rid of them quick.
    Hope all goes well!

    • Chynna
      Author
      June 24, 2018 / 6:43 pm

      Thank you so much! That is a really good idea – will definitely check it out πŸ˜€

  4. June 24, 2018 / 5:48 am

    Welcome back again XD. I love Pipdig’s layouts! They look gorgeous and fits in with modern trends. NaNoWriMo is a great way to build your writers portfolio.

    I’m so happy about your fitness journey! Ok, there’s no rule that you have to post about going to the gym every time for accountability. You don’t need to prove to others that you’re going – you just need to prove yourself :). You’re kicking some ass lately and taking the right steps towards a better future. I am proud of you, girl!!

    • Chynna
      Author
      June 24, 2018 / 6:42 pm

      Thanks, honey bunny! I really hope I can do NaNoWriMo again in July – we’ll see what happens and will definitely update my progress via my blog πŸ™‚

      Love you, N xx

  5. June 29, 2018 / 12:34 pm

    Nice to see you back, Chynna! I’ve also had a lot of time off from blogging, mainly because I’ve just not been feeling like it. Sorry to hear you’ve not be feeling like yourself. Hopefully getting back into writing and other things you like will help!

    I’m attempting NaNoWriMo in July as well. I have a bit of a love/hate relationship with it because it makes me feel forced to write, but I really want to get this novel finished. I’m so bad at motivating myself! Good luck with it!

    It’s great to hear about your fitness journey! I wish I could motivate myself to go to the gym but I never manage to. I always just want to go home and watch Netflix!

    Hope everything goes well and you’re feeling better soon!

  6. June 30, 2018 / 11:39 am

    I don’t blame you, Steven Universe is addicting sis. I see you’ve also been watching a lot of kdrama on Twitter haha can you recommend some? The only one I’ve watched was Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok-joo.
    I love the new layout ahhhh! Come through minimalism!
    I am so jealous of you! I haven’t read a book in the past few months and haven’t been to the gym in almost a year. I think Altered Carbon is on Netflix, but I better read it first or else I’ll become too lazy to read it once I’ve watched it lol
    Can’t wait to hear about your fitness journey! Having your bestfriend come along with you is very productive.
    I’ve been cleaning my stuff (mostly makeup and clothes) out too, either by selling them online or by giving them away. I generally am a tidy person but I go on a cleaning craze once in a blue moon lol

  7. July 2, 2018 / 10:42 pm

    I love the new look! I definitely feel like a new theme makes someone more motivated to write for their blog

    Omg, you’re reading so many books! How do you do it? I always feel like I’m a little too busy to read. πŸ™

    Good luck on your fitness journey, sounds like you’re doing pretty well so far~

    Our self care routine is basically the same. Face masks are my shizz (not sure if I’m able to cuss on here haha)!

    The easiest way to clear out your wardrobe is to do it with friends. They’ll let you know if you need something or not! And it’s super convenient that there’s apps like Depop or Poshmark to sell stuff (especially clothes) that you don’t use anymore.

  8. July 4, 2018 / 6:35 am

    I need new reading recs. Why I’m No Longer Talking to White People About Race by Reni Eddo-Lodge stood out to me. I am assuming it is about what the title is implying. I am from Texas and the tension over race has been a bit strained. I feel pretty alone at work when it comes to politics and race. I am the only minority at work.

  9. Lena Dee
    July 5, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Whoopie!! So glad to see that you’re doing well! Wow you have so many things in the works and I love the new outlay of your blog!! πŸ˜€ It’s so annoying when you don’t feel like yourself and you can’t explain it so I understand this completely…I love that you mentioned self care and the importance of having a little pamper sess and such! It’s so easy to forget to give yourself a little break. I easily get tired because of that then before I know it I’m scrambling for my iron tablets and stuff and trying to get back into a steady workout routine to see if it helps. Great post hun! <3 πŸ˜€

    xx Lena | https://lenadeexo.com

  10. July 9, 2018 / 9:31 am

    Sometimes you just have to take a break from blogging. Especially when you are feeling so low on the energy levels. Have you thought about going to the doctor to have hormone/vitamins and other levels checked? On the other hand when you are feeling down it can also zap every bit of energy out of you. I hope you are feeling a lot better soon. πŸ’–

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