fuck you. fuck you very, very much.
I’m here, after exactly one week. I’ve just been lurking in the shadows to be honest – the will to blog had been drained right out of me. I have no ideawhy but I was so depressed : [edit: Okay, so maybe I did know why I was depressed..] Should have seen my tweets for a while, you would have been depressed because I was depressed. F–king emo, I’ll tell ya that for one.
So the guy that I like is moving to the countryside but he’s moving in with his parents first because he hasn’t bought his flat yet. The flaming cheek of him to come on msn and gloat about moving to a different place and getting some fancy new job just pissed me right off. I think I am the most blatant person ever and he must know how I feel about him but the thing is I don’t tend to talk about my feelings with anyone – well except my best friend – but yet they know how I’m feeling. I mean, one of my friends told my best friend to cheer me up cause I was feeling down in the dumps. I love how people care about me – even though sometimes it doesn’t feel like that.
Also, there’s the guy that I went out with but it wasn’t a date. Pfft, now that’s just confusing. REALLY CONFUSING. I shall not say anything more on the matter. BECAUSE IT’S CONFUSING. My best friend asked me today what would I do if he asked me out, I actually don’t know what I would do unless it actually happened. You know what I’m talking about. You say that you would do this, this and this but really, you don’t have flying monkey’s clue as to what you would do unless it actually happened!
School has officially broken up for the summer today. Well, yesterday because it’s now 12:02am… but that’s besides the point. My summer is actually going to be so great and the fact that I have my EMA finally sorted out is even greater. Hopefully the money will be getting in next week – so therefore, it’s Brighton BBQ on the 27th and Thorpe Park the next day.
It’s my mum’s birthday next week and I have NO IDEA what to get her. I was thinking jewellry or something but I’ll have to think more on that idea. At first, she wanted to go to Legoland for her birthday – she is secretly 10 years old, I swear down. However, now she wants to go to Madame Tussauds – and I still think she’s secretly 10 years old. Bless her though. There is a storm a’coming and the thunder was really loud and my mummy got scared and shouted, “WHAT WAS THAT?!” and I was like, “It’s lightening, Mum”. Her reaction, “OH MY GAD!” Then she proceeded to close all the curtains like that’s going to block the noise. Deary me.
I remember going on Facebook and it was like Jonas Brothers have an update. I clicked on it, obviously, and it was like “NEW! Jonas Brothers revealed in Madame Tussauds”. I got SO excited. And ya know what? IT’S NOT EVEN THE ONE IN ENGLAND. IT’S THE ONE IN NEW DAMN YORK. I didn’t even know there was one in New York, what the fudge?! Pissed me right off. Damn Facebook for deceiving me in such a manner.
Anyway, I had better be off to bed but secretly I’ll probably stay online for about another half hour or so. This weather is pissing me off. Hello, Mutay 🙂