I’ve been single for around about 10 months now. Sure, single life is treating me well but sometimes I get lonely.
Let’s face it; who doesn’t want that special someone to talk to on the phone or cuddle up and watch a cheesy film with? I won’t lie, I do want that but then I sit down and think – I have plenty of time to find my special someone. Or do I?
I’m going to be 20 this year, and I feel like I’m getting old. 20 is probably still young to some of you but compared to most of the bloggers I’m friends with, I’m freaking ancient. I read blogs where some of you are still in school and here I am going onto my third year of university. It’s hard to believe that I began blogging at the age of 15/16 – that was like 4/5 years ago.
My taste in guys have changed over time. I prefer the geeky guys. The guys who I can sit and have proper conversations with about things like Doctor Who, Firefly or Star Trek. The guys who wear cult reference t-shirts. The guys who will happily go along with my fangirling about whatever it is I’m obsessed with at that moment. But will the geeky guys want me?
I don’t know. I identify myself as a geek but I’m kind of different in that I can still be very ghetto. I love rap music, speaking like the London girl I am and getting involved with black people drama on Twitter*. Will I find a guy who likes me for who I am? A short, ghetto, loud girl who loves Doctor Who.
I sometimes I feel I scare guys off. Or they see a side of me that doesn’t necessarily fit with them and so they ignore all the other parts of me.
Asdfghjkl, I don’t know. I want to find that special someone, so badly sometimes. I kind of miss having that connection with someone. Someone who you can trust. Someone who you can tell all your secrets to. Sigh.
I’m trying to get back into blogging regularly because I realise that I do miss it, a lot. I remember when I used to blog like every two days whereas now I only blog when something ‘exciting’ happens in my life. Right now? Nothing exciting is happening and I want to blog more about my thoughts rather than what’s happening in my day-to-day life. I have a lot of thoughts and I kind of forget that I can just rant about them on my blog because let’s face it… it is my blog.
Currently listening to: Diet Mountain Dew – Lana Del Rey
*black people drama on Twitter is basically this section on Twitter which people call ‘Black Twitter’ where it’s just black people complaining about weave, girls, sex, image, etc. Sometimes it’s funny. Sometimes it’s plain annoying.